Sitting still can be one of the most difficult things for us to do.
Have you ever had restless-leg syndrome? Have you ever not moved and fidgeted your leg while you were experiencing it?
I didn’t think so.
The impulse we have is to move your leg. It’s almost as if it’s contagious and your other leg is going to catch it if you don’t move your leg quick enough.
That’s how it feels.
Absorbing the conversation and reacting naturally doesn’t come that easy to everyone.
I’ve found that to be the case for me, and it’s something that I really struggle with.
I’m working on that here.
I just don’t know what to do in those moments. It’s easy to look back.
I should have said this, I could have said that, etc etc.
But I didn’t.
This isn’t something that I will get rid of immediately as soon as I recognize the problem. It’s not going away right this second, nor is it going to vanish forever.
It takes work. Sometimes it’s one step forward and another step back. Sometimes it’s two steps forward and one step back.
I feel like I’ve been inching ahead, slowly but surely.
Not taking an entire step, but inching further and further.
I’m glad to be able to trend in the right direction, even when there are a few set backs.
I don’t mind them. They can become very daunting and loom large over such a small amount of progress.
But it is part of the process. None of this is over night.
Not for me anyway. This is the long road.